miserable

packing is killing me! i literally am the biggest pack rat ever! i need to hire someone to throw away random stuff without me knowing...its like things i find i havent seen since i moved in here two years ago, instead of thinking damn i havent used this in two years i dont need it. I think awww thats where that was i missed it so much. its malarky!!!

on anothr note i am still jobless and loveless in fort worth so thats always exciting....honestly the jobless is way more disconcerting. i keep saying everything happens for a reason and shit like let go and let god, but really i know what those phrases are. They are just cliches thrown out by ppl in the depths of despair or maybe just as a means to rationalize their bad situation. Either way they dont mean much i just gotta catch myself before i use them too much.

ok this has to be quick i got to get back to packing...